setting things straight.

now that i've been thinking about it. i feel like this is all happening because i'm obsessed.

i'm obsessed with the idea of the whole one-more-chance love story thingy. i'm obsessed with the feeling of sadness and regret. i'm obsessed with the fact that we can't be together anymore but we're still trying to be a part of each others lives. i'm obsessed with the idea that we still care about each other more than we could have known but we couldn't do anything about it because we already belong to someone else. i'm obsessed with the fact that an angel has flown away from me and yet there's nothing that i can do about it.

 

and after thinking all about this. maybe, just maybe, i don't really love you anymore. and i'm just stuck in this limbo because i'm simply obsessed with the idea of us, two people who once loved each other but cannot be together anymore.

i hope that after realizing all this, i'll finally find the courage to let everything go and finally move on. i hope that this will be my last blog post for you....

....princess sparkles.

dot. dot. dot.

it's funny how i keep on reminding myself to update my blog and posts my thoughts, opinions and views on things but i seldom get the chance to do so. hay..

August 27, 2010 changed my life forever.

i am so happy to inform all of you that i am now a registered nurse. :) haha! and even if it's been weeks since i first received the big news eh, every time i think about it still feels like i heard it for the first time. haha. here's what happened....

i woke up around 9 am with a terrible headache probably due to lack of sleep (because i've been waiting for the results to come, which i thought would be announced around 12 am, so every night, i open my laptop, and look at various websites looking if the results have arrived.)

so ayun, after waking up, i opened my fb account through my PSP and one of my reviewers informed us that the results will be out in the afternoon. upon reading that post, i felt my heart racing and my pulse bounding. haha! as in!

so, i immediately got up, turned on the laptop and boom! there it was. a link posted about a minute before i was online. then, i reposted it right away. :))

i hurriedly clicked the link with my shaking hands and waited for the page to load. after verifying it's authenticity, i scrolled the page down, carefully reading the names with RIVERA on it.

and i thought i was gonna die. kc actually, marami kaming rivera who took the exam.

so, i patiently read every single name and after all the shaking, i found my name! and sobrang overwhelming ung feeling to the point where i actually felt tears rolling down my cheek.

and at that moment, nagflashback lahat. lahat ng late nights doing duty outputs, pathophysiology, editing paperworks, studying and reviewing for the boards. hay.. it was a relief.

overwhelming feeling.... :)

and i feel so blessed because the Lord have given so much. :) he did not only made me a nurse but he also gave me another blessing (which is a very good board rating). :D

Sept. 21, 2010. i had my oathtaking at SMX Convention Center. after all the long and sort-of boring speeches, my RN friends and i finally took our oath as nurses. :)

so ayun. i am now a nurse. :)

Rules to live by.

Rules for living by Olivia Jules

1. Never panic. Stop, breathe, think.

2. No one is thinking about you. They’re thinking about themselves, just like you.

3. Never change haircut or color before an important event.

4. Nothing is either as bad or as good as it seems.

5. Do as you would be done by, e.g., thou shalt not kill.

6. It is better to buy one expensive thing that you really like than several cheap ones that you only quite like.

7. Hardly anything matters : if you get upset, ask yourself, "Does it really matter?".

8. The key to success lies in how you pick yourself up from failure.

9. Be honest and kind.

10. Only buy clothes that make you feel like doing a small dance.

11. Trust your instincts, not your overactive imagination.

12. When overwhelmed by disaster, check if it’s really a disaster by doing the following :

(a) think, "Oh, fuck it",

(b) look on the bright side and, if that doesn’t work, look on the funny side.

13. If neither of the above works than maybe it is a disaster so turn to items 1 and 4.

14. Don’t expect the world to be safe or life to be fair.

15. Sometimes you just have to go with the flow.

16. Don’t regret anything. Remember there wasn’t anything else that could have happened, given who you were and the state of the world at that moment. The only thing you can change is the present, so learn from the past.

17. If you start regretting something and thinking, "I should have done…" always add, "but then I might have been run over by a lorry or blown up by a Japanese-manned torpedo. "

..i have made this post a few years back on my previous blog, and i have decided to repost it, since, it'll be helpful for me in starting anew.. :)

and i am hoping that whoever reads this, may also learn a thing or two from it.. :)

a brand new start.

if you happen to read my blog over the past years, you might stop and wonder why all of a sudden all of my previous posts were gone. well, i actually deleted all of those because i thought that a new blog layout calls for a whole new blog (which technically means a brand new start).

that's why i have decided to delete my old posts, which i honestly think was a little crappy, since it mostly talks about my very CONFUSED love life. so, i deleted all the crappy ones, and we will start once again with a whole new page.



so, how am i.....

it's a few days before my college graduation, here i am enjoying my free and serene vacation. :)) hooray! i am very very happy to be out school because all the stress are gone, and i am finally living a stress-free life. :)) *finally!* which i think was very good for me, kasi ever since i started my vacation, i noticed that i am gaining weight! :)) and i love it.! because, come on, who wants to walk up on the stage on her college graduation looking like a kindergarten? di ba.



well anyway, there's actually one more problem........

my PRC form.
ugh! it so hard to finish!. i hate it. haay... but i know that i can surpass this. i just have to think positive, stop complaining, and work harder. aja! :))

on love.....

i am in love. still. with my uber supportive and uber loving boyfriend. :)) it's been 24 months, and for so long it has been great. :)) of course, there were ups and downs, ugly breakups and romantic makeups. :)) but it has been a fun ride. :)) and i am wishing that it won't stop. :))




so that's it for now. :) i'll be back. :)